i am extremely good at putting myself in a decision making dilemma... if one's accomplishments could be measured by how good they are at subjecting themselves to a state of complicatedness... i think i'd score pretty well. alas!
i am waiting to hear when the dreaded oral defense of my thesis will be... while waiting i am recuperating from all the madness and slowly getting back to stressing again (?!) and preparing for the d-day. other perpetually lingering issues creep up on me with different intensities depending on what triggers their appearances... they fall into categories like: do i want to stay in research; is there something else out there i could do or have the ability or skills i could contribute to?, where could i have as my nomadic base; how long am i staying in any given place?!?, should i even consider getting a car, if i might have to relocate again?, etc.
ARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! i hate how i do it to myself again and again... you should have to avoid getting into such a state like i often do as it is extremely vexing! to get out of this crippling restless state of rationalizing... i am keeping myself busy... and hoping that the activities will push those chronic issues into the subconsciousness and let them hum in the background whilst they reconfigure themselves into something more positive.
sigh... i should never have been a nomad... =(
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